Prodigal Daughter

Wow, that was a super interesting blog. You are painting a masterpiece featuring Jesus your perfect lover. Why are you non deserving of what God gave you?

Excellent question, Wil! I'm loving your questions, they are making me quest deeper into my heart to figure out why I believe what I believe.

I am the prodigal son. I took my inheritance as a beautiful creation of my Father God and I blew it on the world. Cheap pleasures, pointless prestige, material possessions. None of these things are what I was made for, they cheapen me and they are second best to what God had for me if I had have stayed in His house. And after a time I was ruined, on my hands and knees in the pig muck, wondering where it all went wrong. The world sucked all the life out and left me with nothing, and I turned my back on the best thing I ever had, a place in the house of my Creator and Father. I remember like it was yesterday the day I dragged my pig mucky self up the driveway and I saw to my amazement, my God running to scoop me up in His arms. I remember saying, 'I don't deserve anything, I'll take whatever your willing to give, just the scraps, the dredges, I've ruined everything, you can't want me anymore, but I want you.' But He laughed through His tears and said, 'Bring out the fatted calf, we are having a celebration!' He took my ruined clothes, bathed me, clothed me, restored me to my former glory as an heir in His household! I DON'T deserve anything. That's the truth. But His love and grace covers over all my failures and makes me new and pure again. I want to be like Paul, I want to show my weaknesses so that the grace and goodness of God will be evident for all to see. I want people to look at my life and say, 'Look at what God has done, isn't He awesome, aren't His works beautiful'. I don't want them to look at me and think that I am wonderful in my own strength.

I hope that answers your question!